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We so many times tend to generalize our thoughts for the rest of the human kind. I think I generalized one of my thoughts again. Sorry for that; but I have lately discovered that I tend to do this very often; I am in the process of evolution now and I realized suddenly that I am a very unique being. For starters, I am a combination of billions of microscopic entities which have assembled in a way which was never tried before. Let the scientists first finish debating about the microscopic entities, and  in the mean time we (:x), sorry (again generalizing) I will call them andy. These  andy’s on there own may be lifeless but somehow the combination creates a living being which is me <adding this comparison for the sake of paradox; the andy’s can even be alive>. Somehow they work for the good of me; my functioning and they don’t even know of my existence.  But do they even know of there own existence? Every andy is working hard, which can be proved by the mere fact that I am writing this blog. And when this unique combination was put in an external environment in which it was never before, the wiring inside my brain happened in such a way which can never happen.

If I am a unique being then all my thoughts and actions are unique; what I think could never have been thought in the same manner, what I have done could never have been in the same manner. Hence I feel that it is wrong on my part to generalize what I think/believe onto the whole of human kind. For example if I say that we are destroying the planet, or we are responsible for all the trash that is lying on the road; whom am I referring to, how do I know about others; I can be certain about me and my actions but not about others.  There is no we but only I, it is I who think, who does and thus it is I who needs to change in order to see the change happening around me. And it is not difficult to change also; all I need to do is to think for the change to happen and voila. The wiring inside my brain will change as I think and as a result I will change.

Coming back to point about the andy’s; there are so many of them and each one doing a specific role in my body. The funny thing being they don’t even know that their doing one particular task is keeping me functioning; they don’t even know about me, and also not about the existence of other andy’s in my body. Still without knowing about other andy’s or me; they are working in such a coordination that keeps making me do what I want to do. I sometimes ponder over the fact that if I am the andy in someones body. If this universe is alive and I am just serving one purpose in the universe. But then I feel that I need not know about it; I just have to do what I feel like doing and it will serve the purpose. There might be trouble when I do something against my intuition; just like the andy’s in my body. If they did something out of line I might be in trouble and in turn they will be in trouble. Similarly the universe will be in trouble if I did something out of line and inturn I will be trouble. I will need to change if I am not following my heart and being intuitive; ’cause if I am not then there might be some problem with the universe. For which I just have to think and rewire my brain and voila the universe will change around me.

All these andy’s make me feel like an universe, make me feel as big as possible and the universe starts making me feel like andy. And having studied programming, the funda of recursion comes into my mind again and again. Am I the universe or the andy; or is this a never ending loop?  Is every andy an universe and every universe an andy? Is this the way it is? But then I need not think all this and just follow what the heart says, and I will serve the purpose if I am an andy and I don’t even need to know about it.

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